Army Wives and Partners

Bobby and I have been together for over 6 years now and married for just over 9 months.

In the grand scheme of things it's not a very long time I suppose, but it's long enough that I know my life would not be the same without him. It would be, well, less, Less everything.

He has been in the army for 2 years now so safe to say I'm used to some of the hang ups associated with army life.

It is hard!

Really hard!

And it is 100% something that I never wanted.

I'm not ashamed to say that. I never wanted him to go into the army.

But I would never stop him from following his goals.

I will support him for the rest of his life and though I never wanted the life he chose I will forever be extremely proud of all of his achievements and the person that he is (because he is the most amazing man to grace the planet!)

I am the first to admit that as far as the lives of army wives go, mine is simple.

1. I am not expected to follow Bobby from place to place so can stay at home and finish my degree.
2. He (so far) has never been deployed anywhere. I pray that this never happens.
3. We don't have children yet.

But with this I still have the painful goodbyes and the gap where my husband should be.

We spend more of our marriage apart as we do together.

I still worry if he has gone on exercise and I haven't received a text confirming he's safe and there.

I still miss him when I'm spending another night alone or when there's a special occasion that he isn't here for. (It's my birthday the 2nd and his the 25th and we won't see each other)

I constantly get told "oh I couldn't do what you do".

'What do I do?'

I live my life and wait to see my husband.

But in reality it takes so much more.

Most women get home from work and tell their husbands about the day they have had.

As an army wife I don't do that, and if I do it's over the phone.

I'm pretty sure that not everyone feels the way that I do about begin an army wife but I salute each and every army wife/partner.

You are strong!

As much as I struggle with the negatives of this life I still am so grateful for what my husband does and who he is. I honestly wouldn't change him for the world and I know that he is doing all he can now to secure a better future for us and our family.

It's hard to be an army wife/partner but it will always be worth it. 

Stay safe,

Paige

xoxo

Keeping up apperances

Hi Lovelys!

I know I haven't posted since June! But I have been really busy.

So I finished college & am now a qualified nursery nurse.

I got a new job (not as a nursery nurse) in a hospital.

I have moved house!

(Pictures will follow once my room is finally sorted)

&

Bobby bought me an early Christmas present that comes in the form of this beauty.

This is Tyrion!

Yes Tyrion. Like GoT. I know but I liked the name and the character so voilà!

He is 8 weeks old & has just had his first lot of jabs. 

Isn't he adorable!

He is a Staffordshire Bull Terrier which obvs means he is dangerous & vicious. 

See how vicious he is!

I've even already had a women pull her child away from him, whilst he was in his carry cage, as soon as I told her he was a Staffy. I have to say it did piss me off. As you can see he is so sweet & harmless but if that kind of behaviour persists around Tyrion, it won't be him that people will need to worry about. Mama will show you aggressive.

My 4 year old brother absolutely adores him so how can he be a danger.

I'm getting sick of telling people that it's not the breed it's the owner that makes them dangerous.

Anyway Tyrion has now learnt his name, to sit and to shake.

He's so clever!

He may only be little at the moment but he is a valued member of our family & we all love him dearly.

Stay safe

Paige & Tyrion

xo

Father's Day!

Hi Guys!

So today is fathers day as you all know.

I would like to wish my dad a lovely day.

My dad and I. 02/03/1993

We don't really see eye to eye and our relationship is pretty touch and go. 

It's been very hard for me because of things that have happened in the past to let go of the resentment.

But I have tried my hardest and I know that sometimes I may not appreciate him as much as I should.

Regardless of our ups and downs I still realise how lucky I am to have a dad and have had the opportunity to have a relationship with him, even if it isn't the kind of father/daughter relationship I had hoped for.

No matter what happens or has happened I will always love my dad.

He is the only one I will ever have.

Happy father's day Dad!

I would also like to say happy father's day to my mother.

My Mum and I. 1996

There have been long periods in my life when she has been both my mother and father.

It must have been really hard for her to take on both roles, especially knowing that my dad was still a part of my life.

She did such a good job raising me and I would like to thank her for everything she has done for me and no doubt is yet to do for me.

I love you Mum.

Always.

The fact of the matter is without both of them, there would be no me.

I am eternally grateful to both of them for everything.

They can never be replaced.

Stay safe

Paige

xo

Guess who's back...

Hi Guys!

It's been ages I know so let me catch you up on what been happening since my last post!

I bought a new car!

Yes it kind of looks like a boy racer car but it will do me nicely!

I have named him Pepe La Pew (because lets face it, it looks like a skunk!)

I cannot drive it yet because my logbook still has not arrived sooo, I can't tax him :/

I have been working my butt off at college and placement and get this, my placement have said that, and I quote, I "am the best student that they have ever had"! Arrgghh! Feels so good to be appreciated for all the work I do!

I have an interview at Northampton Uni on the 28th so am really excited about that! I have also finished my student finance so now it's the waiting game!

I have been working non-stop with one of my clients since the other unfortunately went into hospital. :(

I am completely drained!

There has been ALOT of family drama! 

Which hopefully will sort itself out.

I have obviously already said what I needed to the rest is in others hands.

I have been to see my family this weekend which was so nice!

I know that my little sister is taking the 'drama' hard so spending time with her and my little brother was exactly what was needed. Huge cuddles were had!

I've spent loads of time with Bobby which has been lovely! 

I only came back today so I will have to get used to sleeping alone again :/

Oh and my tyre blew up on the home!

Mortified!

Well I think that's about it.

Hope your all well!

Stay Safe

Paige

xo

Jump

Hi Guys!

So never mind my 21st, it was Bobby's 21st 5 days before mine! I completely forgot to post this sooner because Bobby was over and I rarely get a chance to see him so was kind of consumed in spending time with him. Well any way I got him a birthday present which I gave him a week before his birthday and this was it:  

Yep I took Bobby skydiving! 

(Thats him in the orange :)) 

It was incredible! He jumped out of a plane at 13,000 feet! 

He loved every second of it and I am so glad that I could make it happen for him.

 It means a lot that he enjoyed it seems he is going into the paras in April (and as far as I can figure, jumping out of planes is a daily occurrence in that job!) 

So here's some more of the photos!

Personally, I love this one :)

Hope you all like the pictures :)

Stay safe,

Paige

xo

Surprise!

Hi Guys!

Sorry I know I haven't posted in a while but I've been really busy with everything :/.

So today is valentines (merrr) and as you know from my previous post about valentines day, I am not it's biggest fan but today I received something at my door which actually made my day.

And here it is:

It's real.

So after agreeing that we weren't celebrating valentines because of everything I mentioned in the previous post. Bobby had this delivered to my house anyway! And it is beautiful!

I have to admit, it did annoy me a bit because I don't like valentines day but the fact that I didn't know I was getting it was what made it special. He could have sent me this any day. It didn't matter that I was today.

People in relationships kind of just expect to get something for valentines day and that's okay because it's prearranged but getting something when you expected nothing feels so much better.

I honestly wanted to kiss him, then punch him!

And he's coming over on Sunday so I might just do that.

With our birthday's coming up soon it's going to pretty exciting as neither of us know what each other has got us. So it's pay back for this beautiful surprise that I told him not to get!

Thank you Bobby, because I know you read my posts. I love you so much, everyday.

Stay safe

Paige

xo

I could not live without..

Hi Guys!

So I've complied a list of the things that I literally could not live without. Aside from the obvious you know, food, water, oxygen. So here's my list.

Number 1. Bobby.

For obvious reasons Bobby is s big part of my life and without him I honestly don't know where I would be. I love him more than anything.

Number 2. My family

Luke & I

Turner family

Me & Nan.

Me & Mum

I love my family so much. They drive me crazy but without them life wouldn't be the same.

Number 3. My laptop

Everything I do eventually ends up on my laptop. I use it to watch films, listen to music, when I'm bored and to do coursework. Without it I would have failed my course a long time ago.

Number 4. My engagement ring

I've gotten so used to wearing it that I literally feel naked if I don't have it on! (don't mind the fat fingers)

Number 5. My car (Finley)

I could not cope without my little car. Hopefully getting a new one soonish but still I couldn't carry on without a car.

Number 6. Contact lenses

I couldn't cope without my contact lenses and literally couldn't go back to wearing glasses.

Number 7. My diary

This cute little diary has everything in it. Appointments, special dates and things I need to remember.

Number 8. MY BED

I love my bed more than words can say! It's so comfy and getting into it after a long day is my kind of heaven.

Number 9. Scented candles

As you've just seen I love my bed but I don't sleep very well. These babies put me out like a light.

Number 10. Dry shampoo

Easy, simple, quick. When I don't have time this completely saves me.

Number 11. Brow kit

I can no longer live with not having my eyebrows done. Not drawn on, just filled in.

Number 12. Perfume

My two favourite perfumes. Smell gorgeous. 

Number 13. Vaseline

This weather does nothing for my lips so this tiny tub of vaseline stops them from cracking and looking just horrible!

So theres a few things I could not live without.

Stay safe.

Paige

xo

Valentines is coming!

Hi Guys!

So now we're in February and Valentines day is looming I thought I create a post about the day that centres around love and affection. Oh and that I think it is completely pointless!

Bobby and I have been together for over 3 years now and haven't celebrated the day once!

The reason being that I feel that I love him (and he me) every single day. I show him and tell him how much I love him everyday not just once a year. Valentines day has become extremely corporate and exists purely to make money out of the head-over-heels. Cute teddies, I love you hearts, huge cards and now even the expectation of expensive jewellery and other gifts. 

I just don't understand why people spend and spend, year after year, their hard earned money on a gift and a card that tells the person their with how much they love them. 

Instead of spending ridiculous amounts for Valentines why not just find experiences to enjoy together on anniversaries. Days that actually mean something to your relationship.

Then on the flip side of the day, you get the people that are single. That can't escape the commercialism of Valentines day. That are constantly reminded that they are single and haven't yet found the person that they can be happy with. What about them? What about the depression it causes and in extreme circumstances the cases of suicide!

I know that for the people in love this day can be magical and romantic but so can any other day of the year. You can't rely on one day to keep the romance and intimacy in a relationship. Real relationships require dedication and sacrifice. 

Trust me they aren't all I love you hearts and expensive jewellery!

How do you feel about Valentines day?

Stay safe.

Paige 

xo

Wedding Flowers

Hi Guys!

So I am finally getting married in 2015 (hopefully October) and I wanted to share with you the flowers that I will be having for my wedding day. So here they are:

I'm actually really pleased with how they turned out! I made them myself with help from my mum and even if I say so myself, I think they are gorgeous and so unique.

So we made the petals individually, 5 for each flower and stuck them together with strong glue. Generally we still had to sit holding them together for a while just to be sure they didn't all fall apart.

I got the fairytale card from the range (the range is incredible and I want to live there!) as well as the pearls and the wire.

Once all the petals were stuck together and completely dry I twisted the wire so that it was just sitting inside the flower and was secure enough to hold the flowers in place.

Then using a soldering iron or wand or what ever you want to call it, I melted the top of the wire and placed it inside the bead/pearl.

I twisted all the wires together at the bottom so everything was secure and wrapped it in tissue paper so it doesn't take my eye out whilst I'm walking down the isle. 

I then used glitter glue to tidy the concertinas in the petals. 

When I get chance I'm going to cover the tissue by wrapping it in lace and creating a tail at the end. Hopefully the lace will match by dress!

If you want to know any more like how to create the petals then get in touch via the 'contact me' page.

Stay safe

Paige

xo