Bobby and I have been together for over 6 years now and married for just over 9 months.
In the grand scheme of things it's not a very long time I suppose, but it's long enough that I know my life would not be the same without him. It would be, well, less, Less everything.
He has been in the army for 2 years now so safe to say I'm used to some of the hang ups associated with army life.
It is hard!
Really hard!
And it is 100% something that I never wanted.
I'm not ashamed to say that. I never wanted him to go into the army.
But I would never stop him from following his goals.
I will support him for the rest of his life and though I never wanted the life he chose I will forever be extremely proud of all of his achievements and the person that he is (because he is the most amazing man to grace the planet!)
I am the first to admit that as far as the lives of army wives go, mine is simple.
- I am not expected to follow Bobby from place to place so can stay at home and finish my degree.
- He (so far) has never been deployed anywhere. I pray that this never happens.
- We don't have children yet.
But with this I still have the painful goodbyes and the gap where my husband should be.
We spend more of our marriage apart as we do together.
I still worry if he has gone on exercise and I haven't received a text confirming he's safe and there.
I still miss him when I'm spending another night alone or when there's a special occasion that he isn't here for. (It's my birthday the 2nd and his the 25th and we won't see each other)
I constantly get told "oh I couldn't do what you do".
'What do I do?'
I live my life and wait to see my husband.
But in reality it takes so much more.
Most women get home from work and tell their husbands about the day they have had.
As an army wife I don't do that, and if I do it's over the phone.
I'm pretty sure that not everyone feels the way that I do about begin an army wife but I salute each and every army wife/partner.
You are strong!
As much as I struggle with the negatives of this life I still am so grateful for what my husband does and who he is. I honestly wouldn't change him for the world and I know that he is doing all he can now to secure a better future for us and our family.
It's hard to be an army wife/partner but it will always be worth it.
Stay safe,
Paige
xoxo
